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Jul. 29th, 2002 | 08:02 pm
mood: ecstaticecstatic
music: The sounds of the AC... Such a beautiful sound....

SpicyCajun1 (7:25:06 PM): Just read your journal. Entertaining to say the least. Thanks for plastering my information for anyone to see. :-) But I guess since I'm a "fake" it doesn't really matter eh? I don't really care at this point if you believe what I say or not. But, I do love you, I do care about you. I can't tell you to fuck off and fuck you and I never loved you... I did. But I'm glad your friends are supporting your fake theory. At least I know they're there for you. Good luck with the next one.

Auto response from DLough1313...........

I wasn't there.. it's just the message she left...
I guess she dosen't understand the fact that I'm not available... I'm not doing the phone and internet thing.. I'm here.. I'm in Syracuse... If I date someone.. it's gonna be in Syracuse... It has nothing to do with what I feel for her or anything of that sort...
But, everyone takes things their own way, so, it's her loss if she takes that in a negative way...

If I was going to do the internet/phone thing I would definatelly pursue something more with "J"... Hell.. she lives in NYS (3 or 4 hours from me... but still)...
Plus I know what she says in truthful and she calls me if there is a crisis or anything... And I'm just a friend...
I don't know where I am going with that.. but, yeah...
Since I last wrote in here I went swimming, watched about the train derailment on FOX news... and ate dinner...
What an exciting life I lead....

OH! There was exciting news!!!!
I am being nominated to be on the Rotary District Youth Exchange Committee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm so excited!
Unfortunatelly the people who are in charge of Japan are still interested in continueing their involvement, so, I will be in charge of Italy and Hungary...
I'm so psyched!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I can't believe that I forgot about that!!!!!!!!!!!!!
YAY ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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from: inkblots
date: Jul. 29th, 2002 05:29 pm (UTC)

that's definitely tough, but in the end it's best for you.
the internet and phone thing..it never really works out, you know? in the end it just ends up being painful and unhealthy. you need someone there for you, now. i hope everything works out for you.

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from: shoshiki
date: Jul. 29th, 2002 08:09 pm (UTC)

I know it dosen't... Thats why I had to end it right there... I couldn't go any longer like that...
It's too stressful...
If it was a situation where it did not affect my normal everyday life.. I'd be fine.. But it started to affect my normal life.. and once that happened... done, can't do it...
Cause.. well.. think about it, the normal everyday life is what pays my bills... She sure as hell wasn't gonna pay them for me :-)

Thanks for responding, means a lot to me :-)

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from: inkblots
date: Jul. 30th, 2002 06:40 pm (UTC)

aww, that's ok. i know i don't respond a lot, i've been withdrawn lately, but i do always read. always.

and yeah, stress is never good, and it's so hard because when it affects your life like that people can tell and explaining the situation to people is just...not pretty after a while.

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from: shoshiki
date: Jul. 30th, 2002 06:50 pm (UTC)

Hey, thats the main reason for the journal!
"whats wrong?"
me: "nothing"
"no, I can tell"
me:"just read the journal"

saves time of explaining it a million and a ahlf times.. and lets you focus on the road to getting over whatever it is that was bothering you without having to think about it non stop while you tell the story to person after person...

and thank you for always reading... it does mean a lot...

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