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Aug. 6th, 2002 | 06:16 pm
mood: flirtyflirty
music: ET on NBC

Well.. I ACTUALLY WORKED TODAY!!!!!!
Didn't make much money.. Just had to drive up to Watertown, pick someone up, and brin them back...
But, I got to wear my suit for the second time in like 2 and a half weeks...
Lets just hope I have to put it on again soon! hehe
So.. thats what I did all day today...

Now onto some background info for those of you who don't know me and wanna get to know me...
Topic: relationships

Well.. *sigh* past loves...

I never really dated anyone or anything until I got to Elmira (college) Once there.. I became friends with some girls in my dorm... Steph, Chrissy, Lori and Bethany...
Now, I liked Chrissy, really liked her... But, I was shy and so was she.. Steph is the one that made the move on me... And we talked for a couple nights.. spent a lot of time together.. things were going good...
Well, when I was there I worked as a "security escort"... walked people from one dorm to the other to make sure they wern't killed or anything (as if I would be able to stop anyone)... And one night I met Amy... She tald me how she has been watching me and thinks I am cute and she walked around on my shift with me all night... (while steph, lori and chrissie are partying in my room for Steph's birthday)... To make the story short... I picked Amy and gave Steph a mean birthday present...
Thankfully we remained civil to eachother and I am still friends with.. well.. Lori out of all them...

Amy was really cool.. I loved hanging out with her and stuff... Her and I got really close... I fell in love.. and she took a part of me that I can never get back.. if you know waht I mean...
After about 7 months or so... She started getting kinda distant... She had been distant for different reasons throughout... She was an alcoholic and I had helped her curb that addiction... but this distance was different... She wouldn't tell me where she was going or would just disappear for like whole nights and stuff... So I confronted her and asked if she was cheating...
she was...
with another woman...
so... needless to say... that H U R T ... Here it is, the person that took my virginity is cheating on me and left me for another woman....
I didn't really date with anyone for a while after that..
There was a short time when I was with a fellow former exchange student.. but it didn't last long before we figured we were better off as friends...
I ended up dropping out of Elmira and moved home where I started going to OCC.. big mistake.. didn't even make it a semester before I left there and waited till the end of the semester and entered simmons school of funeral service...
ok.. thats getting a little ahead here..
when I moved home, I went back to work at Wegmans... And fell for Amanda... Now, her and I got a long REALLY well... I loved spending time with her, and we did a lot together... Course.. it was a very sexual relationship.. But I don't think that was all that was there.. I did love her... And, honestly, I have no clue what happened... I know that it was me who broke her heart... But I really don't remember why or anything... Thankfully time has healed wounds and I am still friends with her now... We go out to eat every now and then, I love spending that time with her...
After her there was another short relationship, Marissa... weird is the best I can put it... The poor girl didn't know how to kiss.. but she was nice and I knew she meant well.. it just wasn't for me.. I left her for Kristy... hehe, then Marissa was nice enough to come up to me like 3 months later and tell me how it was over (which I already knew and had told her)...
Kristy was... well.. to sum it up, She is the one person who graced my life that I loved the most...
We did EVERYTHING together.. I was either always at her house or she was at mine...
Her family loved me... Honestly, we would have gotten married if it was my choice and things didn't go the way they did...
After we were together about 8 or 9 months, my friend from Japan (Seiko) was going home and I took her and Kristy out to a party for her last night in the US... Well... I had a couple drinks.. not much.. and Kristy had a LOT... well.. enough to be throwing up drunk (A HUGE pet peeve of mine)... So, when it was time to go, I dropped Kristy off and then went to take Seiko to her hotel...
Well... I went in to talk a little with Seiko... and while I was there.. she asked if she could kiss me.. and I was like.. what? (I was TOTALLY in love with her when I was in Japan.. we spent a LOT of time together but I never asked her out or anything)
So I asked why (hey, I was with Kristy.. she knew this.. and I was caught off guard.. asking why was a BIG mistake..) She said that she has been in love with me for years.. and when she came here to the US, I was with Amanda... then she went to Indiana for school for the year.. and when she came back, I was with Kristy... and before she went home, she wanted me to know that she loves me and she wanted to kiss me... Well.. I told her how I had felt and we kissed... some clothes came off.. but not all them... she had her "friend"... Which saved me from all out cheating... Cause the way things were going... It prolly would have happened...
We talked all night and I went to class the next morning... I left class on a break and had to go and se Kristy cause I felt so bad about what happened the night before...
I told her everyting that happened and was hugging her and crying about how sorry I was... and she left me...
I don't blame her.. I would have done the same.. But, if I could see that it was an honest mistake and it wouldn't happen again, I would have stayed...
We were broken up for like a week... the longest week of my life... Then she said she would take me back... I was SO happy... Everything was kinda ok for the next 2 months... and then right around our 1 year anniversary, I got a suite at a hotel with a jacuzzi and everything for us to stay in (well.. I worked at the hotal, so it was free :-))
I went to get her.. we got to the room.. and she didn't want to stay.. She wanted to go out with friends...
So I spent the night in the suite by myself crying...
A couple weeks later I found out from her best friends brother that she was cheating on me with him..
So I left her, she hurt me BIG time with that.. she never even told me...
Now, we get along and I still go up and see her... She really messed up her life with the lifestyle that she took up from Matt and his friends.. She gained like 40 pounds, drank all the time, had a lot of sex.. and is not pregnant, and due in a month or so...
I saw her in November or December of last year.. and she, like i said, had gained all this weight.. and she was still beautiful to me.. and i realized how much I had loved her cause I would have taken her back had she shown interest...
And that is how I know that my type is only at first... once i am with the person, it dosen't matter what happens to them, i'll always love them and be able to see the beauty I fell in love with...
well.. after her I dated a couple people when I lived down in port jervis... Cari and Alicia... I broke up with Cari cause she told me that naming my first born son Donald Charles III was being stuck up and she would never do that... (hey, didn't see a future!)
And Alicia and I didn't really date.. we just spent some very special times together that I will never forget and I that her for being a part of my life...
Then I moved to Pleasantville where I dated Susan and "Rosey"... Susan and I got along, but it wasn't going to work out.. we were going in 2 different directions... And Rosey and I... I loved spending time with ehr and talking to her.. we talked like ALL the time... But, I got hung up on the age thing... And in the end ended up hurting her... We are friends now, and I am thankful for her being in my life...
Then I moved to Wallkill.. Dated no one there.. and then on to Maryland... I got to talking with this Girl, Amie (NEVER DATE ANYONE NAMED AMY, AMIE, AMIEE, OR ANY OTHER VARIATION OF THAT NAME)... ok, now that is out of my system...
She was with John, and John was mentally and physically abusive... Well.. I helped her finally think better of herself and get rid of him (after seeing more bruises and stuff on her that she would not go to the police with while she was doing it)... And fell for her while I was helping her... For some reason I broke the lease where I was living to move in with her... We got a condo together, in both our names.. And signed a 6 month lease.. and within 3 months, it was over...
I was not abusive, I didn't MAKE her do certain things.. and because of that, she decided to spend more time with her friends than with me... Well.. that and she wasn't going to move back to Syracuse with me and I wasn't gonna stay in Maryland...
Which brings me to now...
There is a big NO ONE in my life right now... There are people I am talking to who I would consider date... Well.. one that I can think of off the top of my head (EMS...)..
So, I hope you enjoyed reading, if you wanna know more about anything, e-mail me, or contact me on AIM :-)
I didn't get into anything about Grace in this because she wasn't a real life in the flesh type of love... These were people I spent time with and actually kissed and huged and everything..People that I showed how I cared and they showed it back... If that makes any sense...
Maybe I'll write more later.. as if this isn't long enough...

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Re: Dude...!!

from: shoshiki
date: Aug. 11th, 2002 02:12 pm (UTC)
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Yeah.. I tend to rememebr the little things and the important things but not the everyday normal things... does that make like no sense or what?????
Haven't talked to you in a while... Hope everything is ok!
Love ya!

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