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Jul. 1st, 2006 | 03:48 am

Ahhh... July 1st.

July 1st.... What was going to happen.. oh yeah... I was supposed to get married today.... yeah that was before I had to break off the engagement...

So... to me, it was a very difficult decision to come to and it was hard for me to deal with... But what gets me is some people close to me can't accept that....

Tonight, I'm at the casino with my parents... and talking to my mom.. and I said to her.. "hey, you know what tomorrow is right?" she didn't know... so I told her.. yeah.. i was supposed to be getting married to Ivette.... Instead of being understanding or anything... my response? "what are you fucking infatuiated with her or something?".... now, there was nothing in that comment that inplied that.... It's not like I talk about her or anything... hell, where that even came from is beyond me.... I guess it was too much to ask for a little understanding that.. hey... Tomorrow (well, today), was supposed to be the first day of the rrest of my life with someone... To me, thats a big thing.. hell, it's something I have been waiting for all my life.

I dunno... Guess there are some things ya just can't talk to everyone about....

grrr.. that really kinda did make me angry... I mean I didn't show it or anything.. but I was kinda taken aback by the whole thing.. her response.. then her follow up comment "well, you were planning like 3 weddings so how was I to know"... it's stuff that we had gone and talked to.. well.. tried to talk to her about and she wanted nothing to do with it because she didn't like Ivette.... It was mainly (I think) a race thing even though she swears it isn't...

augh.. sometimes family pisses me off... Too bad everyone can't just ignore frickin colors and just live their lives... who does it matter? why was it an issue for me to date a black girl? why was it such a big deal? ... uugh.. not gonna think anymore into this crap... All I know is that if, by chance, the person who comes along is not white or whatever... then hopefuly my family can keep their.. hell i can't really say racist.. cause i don't think they are... so hopefully they can keep their ignorant views to themselves...... I take some of that back.. My dad was fine with everything... guess it's just the opinionated ignorant ones....

ok.. nuff about that... if it wasn't for the diet I'd ask who was buying and what bar...

Have a good one!


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